Wednesday, February 13, 2008

One year ago today...

First of all, happy birthday, Mike! For those of you who don't know, Mike is my youngest brother; he's a HUGE blessing in my life and is such a godly man. I'm thankful to be his sister. And, Lord willing, I'll get to see him this weekend. I'm really looking forward to that.

One year ago today I had a D&C. What a day that was. One thing I recall most about that day is that the Lord was with me in a very special way. He gave me a tremendous peace and I felt very still. Before I was "put to sleep", my precious husband prayed with me and sang "All the way my Savior leads me." When I woke up, I was in a warm, dark, room with a nurse beside me quietly taking notes. I asked her, so I'm not pregnant anymore? She answered, no. And as I lay in that bed, my silent tears rolled off my cheeks missing the baby I never got to meet.

One year later, my God continues to love me. My husband loves me more and more. AND, I have another name to add to my mother's ring! My precious son Joseph. Oh, how I love him. When people ask me how many children I have, I'll answer two. But, in my heart I love my three children. Each is very precious to me and to my husband. If it had not been for my miscarriage, (little) Joseph would not be here today. Wow. The Lord so wonderfully works these things out.

"For I know that the Lord is great, and that our Lord is above all gods.

Whatsoever the Lord pleased, that did he in heaven, and in earth, in the seas, and all deep places."

~Psalm 135:5,6


Audrey said...

Sending my congratulations on the birth of your son. He's got a very special mom :)

Grace said...

hi sarah! good morning. sorry i didn't comment last night. my sleepy eyes got the best of me. just thought i'd say that i love you and i never knew your d&c would have that much of an effect on me, but i love little jada and hope to see the other two this weekend. make sure joseph is wearing a super kissable outfit, b/c he's going to get kissed either way. call me any time.

Rebekah said...

What a sweet testimony, Sarah! I know exactly what you mean about having two children, but loving three. For me it's having two, but loving five! How I look forward to the day I get to meet my two babies and see my Abigail again! Hug your sweet babies! Love you, Sarah!