Friday, October 23, 2009

Trust in him at all times

Lord willing, in less than 7 weeks, we'll be able to meet the newest addition to our family. To be truthful I'm a bit scared. nervous. anxious. about the birth of this baby. When I think back to giving birth to Joseph (now 21 months old) it almost seems overwhelming to go through that again. In a span of about 5 hours, I experienced the most excruciating/deep pain and the most joyous/satisfying feeling in my whole life. The pain, obviously, being labor and delivering him(without the trusty epidural- I don't know how/why women do that ON PURPOSE) and the joy being after he "popped out." I really and truly wanted to die or for someone to just kill me and put me out of my misery. I thought I had a fair tolerance for pain, but I found I do not!

I don't want to be anxious. I want to trust in the Lord, really just cling to Him for strength. HOPEFULLY I'll make to the hospital in time to get an epidural. All this makes me consider being induced. I've heard lots of negative/positive things about it. With my daughter and son, I went into labor on my own, and I kinda like it that way. However, being induced would "promise" me an epidural. I've got so many thoughts running through my head right now. This I do know: My God does NOT want me to fret and be anxious.

Philippians 4:6 (KJV) Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

Psalms 62:8 (KJV) Trust in him at all times; ye people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us. Selah.


Amanda said...

I SO know how you feel! I was induced last time to ensure that my husband and my doctor would be there! but... 10 hours later, I ended up in a c-section due to my little guy being breech! ugh!

It's pretty crazy! We're both getting SO close to the end! Praise God we are Christians! How do people do it without Him???

Emily said...

I'll be praying the Lord gives you wisdom, Sarah!

Anonymous said...

I do understand you, when I got to the hosp with Beth I was almost an 7 and she was born right after that. I went on my own with Anna, with Naomi and Luke they broke my water because I would be like at a 6 and not feeling a thing and then with Beth she stripped my membranes and she was born right after.....I will be praying for you!


Ems said...

I sure can understand how you feel! I screamed like a chicken and I'm sure I terrified anyone listening! There is no pain like that one.

I back you whatever you decide. Never got induced, but it sounds so like what the girl who "likes to have a plan" would appreciate.

Love you! You sure have beautiful babies.

Heather said...

I try not to worry about the labor part either. I will be praying for you!

Christy said...

I love you so much!

Jamie Butts said...

Maybe I shouldn't ask this close to Baby Butts' arrival, but why did you have to go without an epidural with Joseph? I can't remember, although I guess you probably posted about it. I am trying not to be nervous too! I'm 3 cm and 70% and feel like I contract a little more every day, but nothing consistent or painful - YET. It's all very wild. :) Off to read a bit and then start on some to-dos. Whatever doesn't get now won't get done perhaps. Which is fine, of course. :) I'll be praying for you too!!